It's pouring down rain. It's 9:45 PM and dark as crap outside. I'm reeeeeaaaallllllly bored. I've got an animation that's reeeeeeaaallly close to being done, but I can't bring myself to finish it. It's making me mad. I can't think of anything to submit. I missed school today due to severe sleep deprivation (Not of my choice) and sickness. Argh.

So here's what's goin' down in my life lately:
I've been playing starfox on my snes emulator alot more lately, due to the fact that I figured out how to use my 360 controller on an emulator instead of a keyboard. (I'm a console gamer, NOT a PC gamer, so playing a game with a keyboard borders on the impossible to me.) It's a HARD, but addicting game.
I recently came across a title on the playstation store, a downloadable PS1 game called Um Jammer Lammy, a spin off/sequel to parappa the rapper. Because I loved parappa so much, I bought it without hesitation. And I must say, it's WAY better than Parappa. Awesome music, quirky loveable characters, all that. It's cast a spell on me.

There are absolutely NO traces of summer left, it's been raining like crazy lately, and it's getting colder everyday. Bleh.

I'm starting to slump into that felling of loneliness resulting from me not having a girlfriend. I've been single for a year now, and I miss the closeness. It's been a long time since I've had someone there to hug, kiss, cuddle with, all that gushy junk. (Granted my last significant other was bat-shit INSANE, but still, I miss the comfort.) It's been a long time since I heard someone say "I love you" to me (family excluded). Of course, I am only a teenager, so tossing around a powerful word such as "love" probably isn't a good idea. I'm not sure I fully comprehend what an immense impact you have on someone when you say you love them. I probably haven't experienced anything more than puppy love at this point anyway.

There are a few girls I do like, that I would like to get to know better than I do, but my cowardice rears it's ugly head each time the thought crosses my mind. "She'd never go for a geek like me", "She's out of my league", "She's not into me", "She doesn't even know I exist", "I don't even know her that well", "She'll just think I'm weird", etc etc etc. All those annoying sensations of doubt nag me down whenever I even so much as think about it. I'm probably too young to be worrying about this anyway. It'll happen. Someday. I've just got to keep those hormones in check and stay focused on my schoolwork.

Religion has been popping up alot lately. It's one of those things that I despise talking about, next to politics. It just makes people fight when brought up in a conversation. I personally am not sure if there is a God, though I was raised a Christian, so I do tend to subscribe to the theory of a greater being existing somewhere out there. But, then again, I feel that if there were a greater power, how would we know about it? I just jump back and fourth between those to viewpoints until I mentally tell myself to shutup and worry about something more important. So yeah, Blah.

.........WOW this is a boring and whiny journal. Let's liven things up a bit, huh?
ME: Hey, bob!
BOB: Yeah?
ME: DRUM SOLO!!!!
BOB: *Beats on a drumset like a nut*
ME: Let's go to MOUNTAIN MIKES!!!
BOB: OOOH YEEEAH!!!
And so, Bob and his friend happily skipped off into the sunset together, wondering what life will throw at them next.
THE END.
.........................................Great. Now I want Pizza.